Instead of Good-bye
I'm finally saying good-bye
and even though it's been a long time coming
Tears chase themselves
down my cheek again today
and I pack them away in my suitcase
with the rest of my life
My doubt visits me often now
and questions my decision
but there is where I was born
so if nothing else
I will find myself there...waiting
because this place is killing
whoever it was I used to be
I am almost unrecognizable
and even so, there is a part of me
that cannot leave, cannot let go
because he is still here
and he carries my heart
holds it close when he sleeps
and lets the offbeat rhythm of a murmur soothe him
I cannot pack him into my suitcase and carry him through life
but I've taken his heart with me and he has mine
One day maybe we'll come together and be whole again
so instead of good-bye maybe it's just see you later
and even though it's been a long time coming
Tears chase themselves
down my cheek again today
and I pack them away in my suitcase
with the rest of my life
My doubt visits me often now
and questions my decision
but there is where I was born
so if nothing else
I will find myself there...waiting
because this place is killing
whoever it was I used to be
I am almost unrecognizable
and even so, there is a part of me
that cannot leave, cannot let go
because he is still here
and he carries my heart
holds it close when he sleeps
and lets the offbeat rhythm of a murmur soothe him
I cannot pack him into my suitcase and carry him through life
but I've taken his heart with me and he has mine
One day maybe we'll come together and be whole again
so instead of good-bye maybe it's just see you later